FALL

hem turk
May 28, 2023
2 min read

Do you ever fall? Of course you are falling. Sometimes it is difficult... You undoubtedly fall while you are living through work, home, friends, in short, life and everything about life. Does the thought hurt you so much?

I won't forget, when I was little, I fell hard in the middle of the street, first of all it hurt, I felt the pain on my kneecap and scratched wounds when I was trying to stand up. When I got up, there was shame mixed with pain, it was as if my friends around, the neighbors at the door, the pain of falling in front of them. Years later, of course, I've had bigger falls, sometimes I fell into depression, sometimes I fell into trouble, sometimes I fell into temptation... But I hid each of my falls from people, because I know that falling wasn't just falling.

As I got older, I started to realize that my decline in people's eyes is very important, I learned to put my depressions in the corner, "I learned to laugh in public", maybe many of you are doing this. You know, they say people have a few faces, hah, that's what I did for a long time.

If it was to fall into trouble, it was as if it went away on its own or I became completely indifferent, I don't know, but falling into sin was the only one that didn't upset me...

I guess falling in people's eyes was more important than falling in God's eyes, so I didn't think much of it.

So what happened? When fake smiles start to hurt me. What happened when the troubles that I didn't think about and didn't care about started hitting my face? Who was/was with me?

Most of the time, we think that the pain is gone, there are still small scratches on my knee, and there were many scars from that fall, "remaining from my own pain", so it doesn't go away as easily as scratches. But I don't know if you noticed, when I talked about a lot of pain, I still didn't talk about the pain of my sins on me, because God never slapped my sins on my face...

There were times when I fell into sin... But God patiently waited for me to come to Him, to look at Him...

Because God, with all his love, always extended his hand, whenever I held his hand, then he hugged me. When I prayed then he answered.

The only thing I know is that it is not special to me, it is possible to erase these traces for the whole world. The LORD, who brings salvation to all who believe in his name, took hold of my hand when I fell.